Thoughts Unlimited

To quote Tom Hank's character in Forrest Gump,

"Life is like a box of chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get."

I had a box of chocolates. I opened it. I ate some. Some tasted good, some tasted bad. I was going to continue eating my box of chocolates when...

Someone gave me another box.

Now I have to choose between the two boxes of chocolate.

The problem is, I'm not allowed to find out for myself what's inside the new box of chocolates. I will only know after I've chosen it and opened it to experience it for myself. All I know about the new box of chocolates is from what other people have told me.

But nothing ever beats experiencing it yourself.

So there lie the two boxes of chocolates.

I have to choose only one real soon. Once I make that choice, I can't go back. It's done. Once the new box of chocolates is opened, the old one will have to be closed. But I can hope that the taste lingers in my mouth. Or I could choose to keep the old box. And never ever find out what's inside the new one.



My head tells me to go,
But my heart says no.



Mind over matter?

Numb by Linkin Park

Tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired
So much more aware
I've become a mess
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control
'Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired
So much more aware
I've become a mess
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

And I know
That I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me
With someone disappointed in you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I've become so tired
So much more aware
I've become a mess
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
I'm tired of being what you want me to be